Loneliest guy living with four people I know.

I know, I know.

Bring out the Smokey Robinson, ‘Tears of a Clown’, but I’m serious. How many of you are juggling parenting, working, spousing, and trying to remain somewhat true to your ‘original self.’ Fat Chance!

The concept I’m referencing here is that I can go 2-3 days without having a relevant conversation with anyone in my family. Depending on the mood swings of the kids, I can be the second coming of the savior or the leper from the next colony over.

My wife is kicking ass and taking names in corporate America and I can’t expect to bother her with the trivialities of getting my small enterprise off the ground. I’d be bored too, but it’s all I’ve got to talk about besides how much my kids eat and the size of the deuce the boy left in the bowl.

Family relationships aside (mine are barely worth mentioning), I can go a whole week without a meaningful conversation with someone I’m not trying to convince I’m worthy of a paycheck. I understand the concept of appreciating everyone for every minute they are alive, No Regrets! Was my motto in college. In practice, I may not be open to sharing my feelings after spending a day with my kids and rushing off to work into the wee hours.

Just an observation. I’m really not trying to throw a pity party, or seeking resolution to the issue. It just dawned on me that hustling, grinding, etc… doesn’t leave for much investment in family time. When was the last time you saw a documentary on a successful American Titan of Industry (Rockefeller, Edison, Ford, etc…) that focused on the quality of their fathering…

Taking my lumps and moving ahead on my journey is the path I’ve resolved myself too, even if it’s not quite as social as I would like.